Release

I left work and went home early yesterday, I had to breathe! I thought I was going to sleep myself into a coma, I slept from 11:30 until it was time for me to go to class. Man I have been dealing with issues, yes I have issues , I'm not afraid to admit it. Plus I think I hold stuff in too much...I'm not going crazy........Yes, I understand "Thou will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee".

Anyway, this blog is about my relationship with God. For those of you who may have this thing all figured out, may not get with this, but for those of you who don't, you might just understand. I have been thinking, crying, praying, contemplating and analyzing for what seems like the last 2 wks. I have been so heavy laden and confused about my relationship with God and several other situations. I have seperated myself from those I love and those I know truly cares about me. It hurts soooooo bad, but I don't know how to confront or deal with these issues or people right now. I'm overly emotional, and need some strength from somewhere.. I'm trying to express these emotions right now through writing, but as I type I can feel the tears as they warmly flow down my cheek. Why is it that when you feel like you are strengthen, something happens to make you realize that you are weaker than you thought???

This is actually the most that I've been able to communicate how I feel and what's on my mind. I, of course can't state the specifics but I'm proud to have written this much.

Pray for me, my fathers' children!